Stuck in the past? Nikki Bella admitted that she’s worried she won’t ever escape her breakup from John Cena.

“Going through a public breakup, that was difficult,” Bella, 36, told Hannah Ann Sluss on the Wednesday, April 29, episode of her and sister Brie Bella’s “The Bellas PodcastOpens in a new Window..” “What was tough about that was it came out before a season on air, so people thought it was a publicity stunt.”

The Total Bellas star and the former Bachelor contestant, 24, had similar experiences — Sluss was proposed to by Peter Weber during season 24 of the show and then dumped before the finale aired — and according to Nikki it is hard no matter how serious the relationship.

“Mine was different than yours because I was going through pain of, like, ‘No, this is real. I’m not lying!’” Nikki explained, noting that she “couldn’t imagine having to keep that in” and fake excitement over a possible finale engagement like the model did earlier this year.

Nikki, who is expecting her first child with fiancé Artem Chigvintsev, split from Cena, 43, in March 2018 and after a brief reconciliation, they called it quits in July for good. Despite time passing, the former wrestler is scared it’ll never be fully behind her.